ChemicalInferno1

My Story 28-08-2010 08:49

Every night as i turn out my light

Rest my head on the pillow, close my eyes.....I dream

And the dream continues the same night after

Its strange yet fascinating

My idea was to start writing a book

Going through every chapter of the dream

But not as a dream

But as the story.....anyone think its a good idea? xx

The Unthinkable 28-08-2010 08:46

Walking through this clear, green jungle i shed a tear as i walk further and further away from the one i love

I did The Unthinkable, i left him to perish, left him to suffer the pain

What have i turned into, what have i become,

Can someone help me please as i walk through this jungle, alone, dirty and scared

I miss him, but cant take him bak but please help me

I need you x

My Greatest Influence To Stay... 26-08-2010 07:25

In this world....Alive....And Fufill My Dreams

Theres one person whos unfluenced me so much to keep on living and never take anyones crap....My Boyfriend :).....Hes stuck by me for almost three months now....hes never argued with me because we have always sorted it out

He makes me feel so very happy and want to walk through school with my head held high and a smile on my face....hes the greatest person ever and just to have him in my life is the best thing ever.....i wouldnt be anywhere without him....it just shows that he cares for me

Cody one thing to you....your such a gorgeous and warm hearted person you treat me right and i will never let you go cause u keep me living :) xxxx

The Silence Of Depression 24-08-2010 11:09

Depression is always silent. It never speaks out,never stands tall,never says a word.

Now why would I be writing this post? I'll explain why....Ive suffered despression since Year 5.....I just never noticed it....I would always act happy,pretend to smile,enjoy life.....its all because of the unfortunate, selfish people who think its funny to bully and tease a young child since preschool.....I was bullied by the older grades such as grade 7,and that affected me alot,i felt like i was helpless and not worth the time on the world.....In 2004 I had to move to australia and i thought that would be a turning point for me....but i was wrong....grade 4 i was tripped,punched,pinched and thrown around.....i used to go home at night and cry myself to sleep.....grade 5 was the exact same....grade 6 was worse...i was seriously beaten up.....grade 7 was ok...i still had a few names called at me but i got over that.....Grade 8(beginning of high school)....worst year of my life....i was punched multiple times again and would always get into fights.....Grade 9 I was punched on the head and it was almost close to my temple which could have killed me....I am now in garde 10 and i am still being bullied serverly.....so severely that i have tried suicide about 8 times and they have failed.....All i ask is to be treated nice....but no...i dont...i get tossed about and used as trash....i just wish i was never born sometimes..but my friends influence me to stay.....i still hurt myself....theres no stopping it....it takes over me.....i hope my story gets throw to you....