Recently I decided to take it upon myself to get well deserved justice for years spent being abused by my father. It was about 10 years ago i broke the silence, i was just 12 years old!
At the time there was not enough evidence for a conviction, and they said it would be to traumatic for me... What a load of bullshit!
I spent the last 10 years sufferring from depression, self harming, engagaing in risky behaviour, alcohol and drugs before i managed to pull myself out of the dangerous cycle! At just 16 i decided i would change my life! I no longer wanted to be a 'statistic' so i started looking at my experience in a positive light... Although i was still struggling with depression i managed to get through everyday with a smile on my face, knowing i am better than 'him'.
A few months ago i decided to have my case re-investigated, knowing i had a person who was willing to give a statement and that i had remembered more since my first statements! I was so positive, knowing that i could get justice and stand up for not only myself but others who have been throguht the same thing! But unfortunately i was once again let down by the justice system! They told me there was no corroborating evidence to my allegations, and in court the case would be kicked out as it is my word against his! I wondered how it was possible that my word against his, meant he was the one to win....again....and once again he was in control! Why is the perpertrator always better off in the case if my words against yours!!!?
It's so disspointing that i tried to get justice for myself and prove to others that they do have a voice and they can speak out...and FAILED!
Everyday i hear stories of people going to jail, 4 yrs for armed robbery (thankfully nobody was hurt), many yrs for centrelink fraud! But a child abuser gets let off as if it never happened!!! I as well as others will have to live with the pain and hurt for the rest of our lives, thats of course the ones who make it. I wonder how his fiance sleeps at night knowing what he did and letting her daughter live in his house?
Nevertheless i will keep exhausting all my options, I am not one to give up on something i feel so strongly about! If anyone wants to share their experiences i am happy to listen!
